For some odd reason, I seem to have my deepest thoughts in waiting rooms. Whether it’s waiting to see a doctor or employer, my mind seems to run the most whenever I’m forced to sit down and wait. Today I sat and scrolled through Instagram and realized something. Read More
You are the lamp and your foundation is the lamp post. What do you believe in? What is it that only you can contribute to this world? But why should you ask yourself these questions you might ask, because you are not like anyone else. From the intricate traits that make up your personality down to the finger prints that identify you, everything about you is unique… but it comes with a burden. Read More
I’ve been trying to enter the color game for some months now but I’ve always been scared to in fear of looking “ghetto”. As African American women, we are told that our skin is too dark for certain hair colors but in 2017, influencers alike are proving that to be false. After some time, here’s how I found a color that compliments my skin tone. Read More
Oh another year, another opportunity. Most people don’t know this but my birthday secretly gives me anxiety. Whether it’s trying to plan an amazing celebration or just scrutinizing my progress since my last birthday, I never fail to be on edge this time of year. But I’m changing that now.
You’d think that since I was the epitome of optimism during the storm that now that the storm is over, the optimism would still be there. But nope, it started to dwindle.
To explain my current state of being, I’m going to refer to the story of the mustard seed. To better clarify, in the bible, Jesus stated that if you have faith the size of a mustard seed then you can tell a mountain to move and it will move. Bringing it back to me, it feels like I’ve been walking this walk with my mustard seed of faith in my hand. Sometimes my grip is tight around it but sometimes my grip is lose enough for it to fall between my fingers.
But as I was thinking of the current state of things, I chunked my seed. It felt like nothing was working out. Reality was setting in and things were falling through the cracks. So I started getting frustrated with God. Then of course, that led to me remembering the plans I had for my life and how nothing was going as planned. Life didn’t make sense. I couldn’t remember why I was even writing or blogging. I felt so discouraged. I started remembering all the motivational posts I would see on Instagram and it all seemed to be lies. Posts like, “If God is making you wait, be prepared to receive more than you were asking for”, sounded like pure trash. Just to be honest.
But thankfully that mindset didn’t last long. After getting some sleep, I woke up in the morning feeling a little better. Well, better enough to desire to go and find my mustard seed lol. As I laid in bed, I remembered how bad I had felt the day before. I had no desire to do much anymore or even continue blogging. I just wanted to sit quietly and work as the days passed by. But God would not let that be my life.
For some reason, no matter how hard I tried to ignore the desires God had placed in my heart regarding my life, I couldn’t shake it. Instead the fire was re-ignited. I was reminded of how horrible I would feel if I looked back on this point in my life and how I had let it go to waste. Then I started realizing how blessed I was and how the enemy just wanted me to stay down so I would never walk the path that God designed for me.
So as I walk into September, I’m clutching my mustard seed tighter than ever. I’m reminded of the saying “the dream won’t work unless you do”. I’m gathering my supplies and making plans on how to fully get the best of what this month has to offer. This month will be the match that lights up the rest of my year. The lies of the enemy can’t hold me down unless I let it. Instead of getting frustrated at the little things that are disguised as big things, I’m learning to step back and look at the bigger picture.
But the biggest lesson I’ve learned from all of this is that being optimistic takes work. Don’t ever think that people are born happy, it’s a choice that is made each and everyday and I’m choosing to make that choice. I’m hoping to see the fruits of optimism and positivity by the end of this month. I’m willing to do the work that’s needed to rebuild. September is already here which means the year is almost over. But with God as my strength, there’s definitely time to build.
It’s time to make real plans! New months come with new attitudes and new attitudes bring new blessings. It’s time to have tangible results. It’s time to be proud of ourselves and the way we were created. It’s time to accept the fact that our lives are worth more than we could ever think or imagine. It’s time to rise up and draw the blueprints that will help us to bring about the life we’ve always wanted!
Life is a roller coaster. Whether you’re thrilled to be on it or not doesn’t keep it from moving forward until it comes to its final destination. But with so much uncontrollable moments in life, why not try to change your attitude and enjoy the ride? Shoot why not look good while you’re doing it? 🙂 Read More
I have a love, hate relationship with my edges. For years I’ve had to live life around them. I strayed away from more “European” hair styles because my edges would always pose a threat. Thankfully, I can finally say that I’ve hit the jack pot. I’ve found an edge control that works better than everybody’s beloved Eco Styler! Read More
Purity is a topic that I hardly ever talk about. I always think to myself, ” isn’t purity related to perfection? If it is, then doesn’t that mean that there is no one of us that is really pure? If this is true, then why do we even need to talk about it anymore? But why am I even talking about this now? Why is purity all of a sudden relevant?” Read More
Can someone take me to Beverly Hills please?! This area looked very similar to some parts of California. The palm trees, sunshine and lavish cars had me in a daze! I thought to myself, “so this is how it feels like to have good things”? You’d be surprised at how how aesthetically different some areas in Houston are from each other. Read More
It’s barely mid June and the heat has already declared war on my makeup. My shirt however takes me to a better place. It makes me feel as if I’m on vacation on a cool beach somewhere. Not only is it very vibrant and trendy, but it was also purchased at a very reasonable price. And you won’t believe where I found these shorts! Read More